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One secret.Eight cryptic words. Lifetimes of ruin. Wayland Maynard is just eight years old when he sees his father kill himself, finds a note that reads I am not who you think I am, and is left reeling with grief and shock. Who was his father if not the loving man Wayland knew? Terrified, Wayland keeps the note a secret, but his reasons for being afraid are just beginning. E One secret.Eight cryptic words. Lifetimes of ruin. Wayland Maynard is just eight years old when he sees his father kill himself, finds a note that reads I am not who you think I am, and is left reeling with grief and shock. Who was his father if not the loving man Wayland knew? Terrified, Wayland keeps the note a secret, but his reasons for being afraid are just beginning. Eight years later, Wayland makes a shocking discovery and becomes certain the note is the key to unlocking a past his mother and others in his town want to keep buried. With the help of two friends, Wayland searches for the truth. Together they uncover strange messages scribbled in his father's old books, a sinister history behind the town's most powerful family, and a bizarre tragedy possibly linked to Wayland's birth. Each revelation raises more questions and deepens Wayland's suspicions of everyone around him. Soon, he'll regret he ever found the note, trusted his friends, or believed in such a thing as the truth. I Am Not Who You Think I Am is an ingenious, addictive, and shattering tale of grief, obsession, and fate as eight words lead to lifetimes of ruin.


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One secret.Eight cryptic words. Lifetimes of ruin. Wayland Maynard is just eight years old when he sees his father kill himself, finds a note that reads I am not who you think I am, and is left reeling with grief and shock. Who was his father if not the loving man Wayland knew? Terrified, Wayland keeps the note a secret, but his reasons for being afraid are just beginning. E One secret.Eight cryptic words. Lifetimes of ruin. Wayland Maynard is just eight years old when he sees his father kill himself, finds a note that reads I am not who you think I am, and is left reeling with grief and shock. Who was his father if not the loving man Wayland knew? Terrified, Wayland keeps the note a secret, but his reasons for being afraid are just beginning. Eight years later, Wayland makes a shocking discovery and becomes certain the note is the key to unlocking a past his mother and others in his town want to keep buried. With the help of two friends, Wayland searches for the truth. Together they uncover strange messages scribbled in his father's old books, a sinister history behind the town's most powerful family, and a bizarre tragedy possibly linked to Wayland's birth. Each revelation raises more questions and deepens Wayland's suspicions of everyone around him. Soon, he'll regret he ever found the note, trusted his friends, or believed in such a thing as the truth. I Am Not Who You Think I Am is an ingenious, addictive, and shattering tale of grief, obsession, and fate as eight words lead to lifetimes of ruin.

30 review for I Am Not Who You Think I Am

  1. 4 out of 5

    Kay

    I Am Not Who You Think I Am, is an addicting mystery thriller with an excellent pace that kept me listening and finished within a day. I'm totally gobsmacked by the conclusion! Vermont 1984, eight-year-old Wayland witness his dad shot himself in the face. Near the body was a note with a message "I am not who you think I am." In present-day at sixteen and still traumatized from the event and the note, Wayland starts poking around into his father's past and family secrets. This was my first Eric Ric I Am Not Who You Think I Am, is an addicting mystery thriller with an excellent pace that kept me listening and finished within a day. I'm totally gobsmacked by the conclusion! Vermont 1984, eight-year-old Wayland witness his dad shot himself in the face. Near the body was a note with a message "I am not who you think I am." In present-day at sixteen and still traumatized from the event and the note, Wayland starts poking around into his father's past and family secrets. This was my first Eric Rickstad novel and I love the quick and entertaining thrill. I'll definitely be looking into his other works. Thank you Blackstone Publishing and Netgalley for this audiobook. Available October 5, 2021

  2. 4 out of 5

    Jayme

    “I am not who you think I am” Just eight words that hide a myriad of secrets…left behind in what appears to be a suicide note. Wayland Henry Maynard is just eight years old when he comes home from school early just in time to see his father shooting himself in his parent’s bedroom. He snatches the piece of paper on the floor by his father’s body but tells everyone that no note was left behind. His Mother wastes no time in removing all of his father’s possessions, carrying everything from clothes “I am not who you think I am” Just eight words that hide a myriad of secrets…left behind in what appears to be a suicide note. Wayland Henry Maynard is just eight years old when he comes home from school early just in time to see his father shooting himself in his parent’s bedroom. He snatches the piece of paper on the floor by his father’s body but tells everyone that no note was left behind. His Mother wastes no time in removing all of his father’s possessions, carrying everything from clothes to photographs and books, to the curb-as if she wants to erase all evidence that his father existed. Eight years later, Wayland is having nightmares of “DANGLING FEET”. Convinced his dream means something, he begins to search for the truth of his father’s suicide. He discovers a link to the TALL MAN, who visited his father’s barber shop just before his death, a bizarre tragedy which seems linked to his own birth, and strange messages scribbled in his father’s old books, which he had secretly confiscated from the curb. The book may be set in the 1970’s (and is full of nostalgia from those years) BUT I felt that several GOTHIC themes were utilized in the story, as well. Gothic literature is described as dark, eerie and mysterious, often containing elements of terror, SUBTLE horror, the macabre or bizarre. Common themes include power, isolation and confinement. MANY are included here, though I won’t say which as to not spoil anything. Another GOTHIC theme-the burdened male protagonist, which we have in Wayland, a young man with deformed pinky fingers, who has never received counseling for dealing with the torment they bring him-or for what he witnessed. He doesn’t know if he can trust his only friend, a jock named Clay, or Juliette, the girl he has a crush on, but finds comfort in his dog, Molly, who though loved, endures some gratuitous, reprehensible things, as she isn’t spayed. (descriptions I could have done without). I did guess a couple of things, though I had the WHY wrong. I wish I had been reading this with a friend as it BEGS for a discussion and comparison to some Classics. Don’t let the young protagonist dissuade you from reading this! 3.75 rounded up! If you are intrigued this will be available on October 5, 2021 from Blackstone Publishing. I received a gifted copy through NetGalley. It was a pleasure to offer a candid review.

  3. 4 out of 5

    Debra

    3.5 stars “I am not who you think I am” Eight words that intrigued, the brought questions, that caused tension and hid a secret. Wayland hides the note that says those eight words after witnessing his father commit suicide. He doesn't tell anyone until years later, when he begins to question the identity of the man, he witnessed committing suicide. Wayland begins to look for answers at his local library. This was slow to start for me but slowly and surely grabbed my attention and sucked me in 3.5 stars “I am not who you think I am” Eight words that intrigued, the brought questions, that caused tension and hid a secret. Wayland hides the note that says those eight words after witnessing his father commit suicide. He doesn't tell anyone until years later, when he begins to question the identity of the man, he witnessed committing suicide. Wayland begins to look for answers at his local library. This was slow to start for me but slowly and surely grabbed my attention and sucked me in. I was wondering what Wayland would find/learn. What secrets will be revealed? What truths will see the light of day? From slow burn to tension filled, this book depicts a mystery of the past, explores grief, the search for truth, how lives can be changed. Wayland was a character to feel for. He never received the help he should have - witnessing a traumatizing event, being teased for his fingers, he slowly begins to change. He had two friends, but it was his dog, Molly who gave him unconditional love. This was my first book by Rickstad but will not be my last. Thank you to Blackstone Publishing and NetGalley who provided me with a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review. All the thoughts and opinions are my own. Read more of my reviews at www.openbookposts.com

  4. 4 out of 5

    Liz

    Mysteries told from the perspective of teenagers are always interesting to me. Their lack of emotional maturity, the knowledge that only comes with age and their sense of invincibility always makes for an interesting plot. Here, we have Wayland at age 16. At age 8, he witnessed his father commit suicide in his parents’ bedroom. Now, at age 16, he’s having doubts about what he saw. The story takes place in 1984, so Wayland’s search for information is limited to microfiche in the library and publi Mysteries told from the perspective of teenagers are always interesting to me. Their lack of emotional maturity, the knowledge that only comes with age and their sense of invincibility always makes for an interesting plot. Here, we have Wayland at age 16. At age 8, he witnessed his father commit suicide in his parents’ bedroom. Now, at age 16, he’s having doubts about what he saw. The story takes place in 1984, so Wayland’s search for information is limited to microfiche in the library and public records. He also can’t trust his mother, who got rid of all of his father’s possessions. This is a fast paced, suspenseful story and kept me engaged. There’s a nice sense of anxiety that runs throughout. I kept finding reasons to listen to it throughout the day. As the story goes on, it becomes both darker and sadder. I felt for Wayland, as he starts to doubt everyone in his life. He makes bad decisions, which can never be reversed. The ending does a good job of tying up all the loose ends. Steven Weber was a great narrator and I felt like he truly channeled Wayland. My thanks to Netgalley and Blackstone Audio for an advance copy of this book.

  5. 5 out of 5

    Denise

    Wow! This is one of those books that gutted me and will stay with me for some time. I was definitely not expecting the visceral reactions that came with reading this book - at times it was uncomfortable, brutally honest, and heartbreaking. When the book first started and I realized it was being told from a teenager's POV, I wondered if it would have too much of YA feel to it - uh, it definitely does not. Instead, the story being told from an immature teen's perspective helped to mold the storyli Wow! This is one of those books that gutted me and will stay with me for some time. I was definitely not expecting the visceral reactions that came with reading this book - at times it was uncomfortable, brutally honest, and heartbreaking. When the book first started and I realized it was being told from a teenager's POV, I wondered if it would have too much of YA feel to it - uh, it definitely does not. Instead, the story being told from an immature teen's perspective helped to mold the storyline and bring about surprises I was absolutely not expecting. In 1976, 8-year-old Wayland comes home sick from school one day only to walk into his parents' bedroom and witness his father taking his own life. The only clue his father left was a note that said "I am not who you think I am". Wayland panics and wanting desperately to hold onto something of his father, he keeps the note hidden away until he is 16 years old and still haunted by the events of that day. He sets out to discover the truth behind the note, and whether his memories are playing tricks on him. His search ultimately changes his life forever. This would have been an all the stars read for me if not for a couple of minor issues. I struggled with liking anyone in this book - especially Wayland. I had to constantly remind myself that 16-year-old boys do not always make the most rational choices, especially a boy who had experienced all of the things Wayland had experienced. My personal frustration though was ultimately one of the book's greatest strengths. Wayland's thoughts and actions had a way of sucking me in, and I found myself feeling put out with his mother along with him and distrustful of Clay and Juliette, so when the events unfolded in the manner they did, I was just as surprised as Wayland! The only other issue was with the font of the handwritten letters and notes (which encompasses some key parts of the book). I have no clue what font was used, but it was almost unreadable - I had to work way too hard to decipher them. I really hope it is something that is revised by an editor before the book's release. Also, and this is not a spoiler in any way, but why were we left hanging about what happened to Molly the dog? That irked me as well. 🤷‍♀️ Minor gripes aside, there are several jaw-dropping surprises in this one that will stay with me for some time. I had an inkling about one of them, but its reveal was still shocking for other reasons. Overall, I Am Not Who You Think I Am is a unique, powerful read, even though some parts are a gut punch. This is not a happily-ever-after book by any means, but it makes you question how you would react in the same circumstances and leaves you with an unsettled feeling. There is no doubt in my mind that I now need to check out what else Eric Rickstad has written! 4 stars.

  6. 4 out of 5

    J.D. Barker

    A riveting tale of lies and betrayal. Clear you calendar before you crack the cover - you WON’T be able to put this one down! —J.D. Barker, NY Times bestselling author of A Caller's Game A riveting tale of lies and betrayal. Clear you calendar before you crack the cover - you WON’T be able to put this one down! —J.D. Barker, NY Times bestselling author of A Caller's Game

  7. 4 out of 5

    Terry

    The book description piqued my interest with I Am Not Who You Think I Am by Eric Rickstad. Blackstone Publishing and Net Galley were kind enough to provide me with a copy to read and share my thoughts on. The first eight years of Wayland Maynard's life are so dull they were wonderful, until the mid 1970s, when just eight years old, he witnesses his father kill himself and finds a note that reads "I am not who you think I am." Fast forward eight years, and Wayland has questions. With the help of The book description piqued my interest with I Am Not Who You Think I Am by Eric Rickstad. Blackstone Publishing and Net Galley were kind enough to provide me with a copy to read and share my thoughts on. The first eight years of Wayland Maynard's life are so dull they were wonderful, until the mid 1970s, when just eight years old, he witnesses his father kill himself and finds a note that reads "I am not who you think I am." Fast forward eight years, and Wayland has questions. With the help of his crush and his only friend, he begins to investigate and try to discover the truth. This book is a matryoshka doll of mysteries and revelations. With each little tidbit of information gained, more mysteries reveal themselves. In the same way these mysteries are being revealed, we are witnessing the (understandable) mental deterioration of Wayland and his relationships as he obsesses over the note left by his father. When we finally reach the truth, although both expected and unexpected, it's actually a very simple, albeit unsavory truth. The poor baby matryoshka doll wasn't painted as prettily as those who held her. With atmospheric writing, Eric Rickstad completely immerses the reader into this small New England town during 1984. The characters we encounter, including Wayland, are tangible human beings (and one dog), with characteristics both good and bad, and complex reasons for their actions. This is particularly admirable in a mystery, when often times the more minor characters are not given such depth. The pace begins slow as the scenery is set up, but then it picks up, until it's a feverish pitch in an attempt to get to that final truth. Everything a mystery should be, really. Rickstad is tricky, too. There are little hint nuggets tossed the readers' way. Perhaps some of you will note them sooner than I did and figure it out before the book ends. I'm happy not having realized they were hints until after I finished, however, as I can now sit here and smile as I think, "Oh, and this/that little detail. I get it now." Tricky, tricky, but I love it. Every last bit of it. This was the first book authored by Eric Rickstad that I have read. I'll look forward to seeing what else he's got to offer in the future, and perhaps check into his past work as well. Mystery fans, I definitely recommend picking this one up either by preordering it or when it publishes on October 05, 2021.

  8. 5 out of 5

    Andrew Smith

    Review first published on mysteryandsuspense.com It’s in the title, we know this will be a mystery concerning identity. But the identity of whom? The story starts with a statement from the police department of a Vermont town concerning a manuscript they’ve recently received in the post. We’re given scant detail but warned that some of the content is disturbing. What follows is the story contained in the document. It takes us back to the mid-nineteen-eighties and introduces us to Wayland Maynard, Review first published on mysteryandsuspense.com It’s in the title, we know this will be a mystery concerning identity. But the identity of whom? The story starts with a statement from the police department of a Vermont town concerning a manuscript they’ve recently received in the post. We’re given scant detail but warned that some of the content is disturbing. What follows is the story contained in the document. It takes us back to the mid-nineteen-eighties and introduces us to Wayland Maynard, a boy who at the age of eight witnessed the suicide of his father. At age sixteen he started to have doubts concerning what he actually saw that day. What follows is his account of what transpired. Wayland lived with his often absent mother and his wayward younger sister. The small group of support characters we meet include his best friend Clay, his sister’s scumbag boyfriend and Juliette, a girl that Wayland fancies from afar but is afraid to approach. Wayland and Clay do what teenagers do, which includes snooping around and catching glimpses of events that titillate and disturb in equal measure. But Wayland’s real focus is in delving back into the events of that fateful day, armed with a piece of evidence he removed from the scene and has kept to himself ever since. Having been furnished with the background we are now treated to a fairly detailed account of events which occur over a short period of time. Wayland, Juliette (who he is now at least engaging with) and Clay are all involved, though there seems to be little discernible structure to their efforts. By now the author is adopting a tone which is part gothic horror, with his recurrent use of grandiose and hyperbolic language, but tempered with intermittent sections which have a softer coming-of-age feel. It’s an interesting mix of moods we’re being we’re being teased to adopt. The story is well paced throughout but as pieces of the jigsaw start to fall into place it’s suddenly full speed toward a final reckoning. A big finish seems likely – and that’s exactly what we get. There are some jaw dropping moments in this story, scenes that are truly shocking and at least one which is likely to prompt a double take from readers. But is it possible that there are just too many surprise revelations to fully process and accept? Perhaps, for some, but I think most readers will simply roll with the punches and soak it all up. At its heart it’s an old story, but it’s told in a way that feels fresh. It worked for me and managed to hold me in its grip throughout. My thanks to Blackstone Publishing for providing a copy of this book via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

  9. 4 out of 5

    Julie (JuJu)

    These eight words had my imagination reaching for all kinds of scenarios and twists! Each time a new mystery was solved, it lead to more questions. The author did a terrific job of keeping the tension high, and throwing in some wicked twists! Wayland comes home early from school one day and watches his father commit suicide. Afterward, he finds a note that says “I am not who you think I am”. He keeps the note and doesn’t tell anyone about it until years later when he starts to suspect that the ma These eight words had my imagination reaching for all kinds of scenarios and twists! Each time a new mystery was solved, it lead to more questions. The author did a terrific job of keeping the tension high, and throwing in some wicked twists! Wayland comes home early from school one day and watches his father commit suicide. Afterward, he finds a note that says “I am not who you think I am”. He keeps the note and doesn’t tell anyone about it until years later when he starts to suspect that the man who killed himself may not have been his father. The event has replayed itself in his head so many times he can’t forget it until he finds some answers. This is a highly-twisted audiobook that I strongly recommend. Sincere thanks to NetGalley and Blackstone Publishing. I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily. My Rating: 4.5 ⭐️’s Published: Oct 5, 2021 Audio: 7 hours 55 minutes Recommend: Yes #IAmNotWhoYouThinkIAm #EricRickstad #NetGalley #audiobookreview #InExchangeForReview #ARC #Bookstagram #thriller #mystery After publication, my reviews can be found at Amazon, Twitter, Instagram, GoodReads, Barnes and Noble, BookBub, NetGalley, and Edelweiss @ericrickstad @BlackstoneAudio

  10. 4 out of 5

    Andreas Tornberg

    Wayland Maynard is just eight years old when he sees his father kill himself, finds a note that reads I am not who you think I am, and is left reeling with grief and shock. Eight years later, Wayland makes a shocking discovery and becomes certain the note is the key to unlocking a past his mother and others in his town want to keep buried. I absolutely loved this dark and eerie story. It's a quick, emotional and thrilling page-turner with a lot of twists and turns. The story is very engaging and Wayland Maynard is just eight years old when he sees his father kill himself, finds a note that reads I am not who you think I am, and is left reeling with grief and shock. Eight years later, Wayland makes a shocking discovery and becomes certain the note is the key to unlocking a past his mother and others in his town want to keep buried. I absolutely loved this dark and eerie story. It's a quick, emotional and thrilling page-turner with a lot of twists and turns. The story is very engaging and I couldn't wait to find the truth. The writing is very atmospheric and creepy and it reminded me a lot of Stephen King. I highly recommend this book and it will definitely be on my top 10 list for 2021. Don't miss out on this excellent book. Thanks to the author, the publisher and NetGalley for this copy.

  11. 4 out of 5

    Laur

    A quiet boy alone, made fun of at school, bullied, and of poor means. He has witnessed his father committing suicide one day as he was unexpectedly sent home from school, whereby he finds a man sitting with a shotgun to his head on his parents bed, Then……Boom!! It’s all over with - blood and brain matter is spread everywhere and the case is quickly dealt with, done, and buried. However, before the body is removed from the bedroom, he finds a note nearby, and scoops it up.not letting anyone else k A quiet boy alone, made fun of at school, bullied, and of poor means. He has witnessed his father committing suicide one day as he was unexpectedly sent home from school, whereby he finds a man sitting with a shotgun to his head on his parents bed, Then……Boom!! It’s all over with - blood and brain matter is spread everywhere and the case is quickly dealt with, done, and buried. However, before the body is removed from the bedroom, he finds a note nearby, and scoops it up.not letting anyone else know about it. It’s his secret with eight cryptic words.. Those words will lead to a lifetime of more tragedy and deeper secrets exposed. Fast forward eight years, Wayland Maynard is still left reeling with grief and shock over his father. His mother is pulling a double shift to make ends meet; his sister is dating is dating a very egotistical and foul mouthed Shithead. Yet, he can’t let this go. - he can’t let go of what he saw and heard that day, and he’s convinced the man who died isn’t his father.. But, then who was that and what happened to his father? Who was his father if not the loving man Wayland knew? I had hoped to enjoy this book a lot more than I did - I felt empty and disappointed when the story was brought to a finish. Wayland will regret he ever found the note, trusted his friends, or believed in such a thing as the truth. I Am Not Who You Think I Am is a shattering tale of grief, obsession, and fate as those eight words lead to life changing events, Enjoyable narration with proper sense stress and animation - 3.5 Stars overall. My thanks to NetGalley and the publisher for an AAC , in exchange for an honest review.

  12. 4 out of 5

    Rachel the Page-Turner

    Well, I sat down just to get this book started, and then spent the entire evening finishing it. There was no way I could have put it down! When I end a book by falling over on the couch, you know it’s a good one. This was amazing from page one, and I am thoroughly impressed. Wayland got sick at school one day, and this being the ‘70s, the school nurse tells him to walk on home. He’s expecting his mom to be there, but instead he sees his dad’s truck in the driveway. He walks inside just in time to Well, I sat down just to get this book started, and then spent the entire evening finishing it. There was no way I could have put it down! When I end a book by falling over on the couch, you know it’s a good one. This was amazing from page one, and I am thoroughly impressed. Wayland got sick at school one day, and this being the ‘70s, the school nurse tells him to walk on home. He’s expecting his mom to be there, but instead he sees his dad’s truck in the driveway. He walks inside just in time to see his father kill himself. He finds a note on the bed, reading “I Am Not Who You Think I Am”. He hides it away, and never tells a soul about it. Wayland is only eight when this happened, and the incident obviously scarred him. His mom didn’t get him any psychological help afterwards, so he was never able to process what happened that day. By the time he’s 16, he is awkward and anxious, his little sister has gone off the rails with sex and partying, and his mom is too tired from working double shifts to notice or care. But Wayland has a lot of questions about that day, and he decides that it’s finally time to get some answers. This was a great coming-of-age story, with the added bonus of a mystery … actually, several mysteries before all is said and done. I think most readers will love Wayland; his character has issues, but he’d be crazier if he didn’t have issues after what he experienced. The ending started to go down one path and I was worried that I wouldn’t like it, but then it completely flipped tracks and turned out just as great as the rest of the story. This was a fantastic book that is well deserving of five stars. (I’d like to thank Blackstone Publishing, Eric Rickstad and NetGalley for the ARC in exchange for my review.)

  13. 4 out of 5

    Sylvia Clark

    Excellent read Some things are better left unknown A young man sees his father commit suicide. Many years later he decides to dig into why his father may have done such a thing. It is what he finds along the way, that shapes how his life goes from there

  14. 5 out of 5

    Linda Strong

    Wayland is only 8 years old when he witnesses his father's suicide. He finds a note with only 8 words ... I AM NOT WHO YOU THINK I AM. Hiding the note, he keeps it from his mother. If his father wasn't the man he thought he knew, then who was he? This question haunts Wayland for 8 more years until he finally remembers something from that shocking day .... something that makes him think the man who shot himself in the face may not have been his father at all. His mother won't listen to him or disc Wayland is only 8 years old when he witnesses his father's suicide. He finds a note with only 8 words ... I AM NOT WHO YOU THINK I AM. Hiding the note, he keeps it from his mother. If his father wasn't the man he thought he knew, then who was he? This question haunts Wayland for 8 more years until he finally remembers something from that shocking day .... something that makes him think the man who shot himself in the face may not have been his father at all. His mother won't listen to him or discuss what happened. Does she know more than she's willing to share? Only two of his friends help him search for the truth. (Book Blurb) With the help of two friends, Wayland searches for the truth. Together they uncover strange messages scribbled in his father’s old books, a sinister history behind the town’s most powerful family, and a bizarre tragedy possibly linked to Wayland’s birth. Each revelation raises more questions and deepens Wayland’s suspicions of everyone around him. Soon, he’ll regret he ever found the note, trusted his friends, or believed in such a thing as the truth. This is an amazingly riveting tale of love, obsession and of lies and secrets. The story line is edgy, suspenseful from the first page, and maintaining a high level of tension and uncertainty until the unexpected, surprising ending that I never saw coming. I cannot recommend this book enough. Many thanks to the author / Blackstone Publishing / Netgalley for the digital copy of this Psychological drama. Read and reviewed voluntarily, opinions expressed here are unbiased and entirely my own.

  15. 4 out of 5

    Dee

    Engrossing and twisted tale. I would have preferred the print version, however - after nearly five days to get through it, I must sadly conclude that the audiobook format is just not my thing :(

  16. 5 out of 5

    Jeanette

    No rating. Just not for me and after 3 tries to get to page 100, I've struck out. Not a bad book but in a style that becomes off putting quickly to me. Effusive hyperbole mixed with general moaning. The others out there are calling. No rating. Just not for me and after 3 tries to get to page 100, I've struck out. Not a bad book but in a style that becomes off putting quickly to me. Effusive hyperbole mixed with general moaning. The others out there are calling.

  17. 4 out of 5

    Jada

    This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers. To view it, click here. Thank you to NetGalley and Eric Rickstad for this Audio-ARC in exchange for my honest review. Wayland witnesses his father kill himself. The only reason his father left was a note that said "I am not who you think I am". Wayland keeps the note to himself. Eight years later and his mother, his sister, and him are struggling in many different ways. Wayland becomes determined to prove it wasn't his father who killed himself that day. With some help from his friends he is going to find the truth. Thi Thank you to NetGalley and Eric Rickstad for this Audio-ARC in exchange for my honest review. Wayland witnesses his father kill himself. The only reason his father left was a note that said "I am not who you think I am". Wayland keeps the note to himself. Eight years later and his mother, his sister, and him are struggling in many different ways. Wayland becomes determined to prove it wasn't his father who killed himself that day. With some help from his friends he is going to find the truth. This book started off slow to me. I didn't seem to connect to Wayland at all. To me he came across as whiny, selfish, and a bit bratty. As the story went along I felt a little better about him but not much. He allows his little sister to become completely absorbed in a man who is all wrong in many ways. He resents his mother for what happened and the fact that they are poor. He treats his best friend like dirt and what ends up happening between them I find unforgivable. He criticizes everyone and is suspicious of those who are trying to help. Wayland just did not resonate well with me. As far as the twist that was unexpected and the only reason I enjoyed this book. The ending was a let down because Wayland does not get what he deserves I believe.

  18. 4 out of 5

    Kat Dietrich

    I Am Not Who You Think I Am by Eric Rickstad is a psychological thriller. First, let me thank NetGalley, the publisher Blackstone Publishing and of course the author, for providing me with a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review. All opinions are my own. My Synopsis:   (No major reveals, but if concerned, skip to My Opinions) Wayland Maynard is only eight when his father commits suicide right in front of him.  Wayland steals the note that his father left.  On it are the words "I am not I Am Not Who You Think I Am by Eric Rickstad is a psychological thriller. First, let me thank NetGalley, the publisher Blackstone Publishing and of course the author, for providing me with a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review. All opinions are my own. My Synopsis:   (No major reveals, but if concerned, skip to My Opinions) Wayland Maynard is only eight when his father commits suicide right in front of him.  Wayland steals the note that his father left.  On it are the words "I am not who you think I am".  Wayland doesn't have a clue as to what that could mean, but he misses his father, and he hides the note.  His mother throws out everything she could find that belonged to his father, but Wayland rescued a few things, especially his books. When Wayland is 16, he starts to wonder what he really saw the night his father committed suicide.  He starts to doubt things, and is determined to find out the truth, even though his mother is of no help. He finds some strange messages in his father's old books, and a tie to the town's most powerful family.  Unfortunately, Wayland doesn't know who he can trust, and the story that is unfolding has him fearing no one would believe him anyway. My Opinions:    WOW.  This one grabbed me hard, and as the suspense rose, so did my need to turn those pages.   The pace was good, and the twists perfect. While I had anticipated one of the major twists, others were a real surprise.  The way the author provided the reader with little tidbits of information was really good.  Okay, one mystery solved, now we have another one..... The book is about family, and grief, and obsession.  It is also about secrets and lies.  But a big part of it is a coming-of-age story about a teenager who has gone through a devastating "Incident", that he never really got over, and never understood.  Add hormones and typical teenage angst to the mix, and it is a rather sad story.  It is also a little dark. I liked the ending, where everything got tied up nicely. The author did an amazing job of taking us into a small town in 1984 America, where the library pays an important role.  Rickstad's  writing is really good, and he kept me engaged from start to finish.  I will definitely be looking into his other books. For a more complete review of this book and others (including the reason I chose to read/review this book, author information and a favorite quotation from the book), please visit my blog: http://katlovesbooksblog.wordpress.com/

  19. 5 out of 5

    Robyn

    I AM NOT WHO YOU THINK I AM Eric Rickstad Told from a teenage narrator, I am Not Who You Think I Am started slow and burned at the end much like the old mansion. An eight-year-old child witnesses his father kill himself in his parent's bedroom and then he hides the suicide note with those eight words "I AM NOT WHO YOU THINK I AM". He, his sister, and his mother continue to live in the house and move through their lives without any mention of what happened or his father. AT 16, he begins to search I AM NOT WHO YOU THINK I AM Eric Rickstad Told from a teenage narrator, I am Not Who You Think I Am started slow and burned at the end much like the old mansion. An eight-year-old child witnesses his father kill himself in his parent's bedroom and then he hides the suicide note with those eight words "I AM NOT WHO YOU THINK I AM". He, his sister, and his mother continue to live in the house and move through their lives without any mention of what happened or his father. AT 16, he begins to search for the reason his father would kill himself and why his mother has never made any comment. And what he finds out is worth the read. I don't think I have ever read a book that was similar to this one, so on the plus side is the uniqueness of the plot. The second plus is that it literally sucks you into the pages, you don't think it will, but it does and the end is a page burner for sure. I was certainly surprised and that is always a good thing when you have not completely figured out the plot. For me it was a good read, not a great one.. but a really good read, so 4 stars. 4 stars Happy Reading!

  20. 4 out of 5

    Nicole Wuthering Vines

    This was such an entertaining psychological thriller! It was dark, gritty, twisted and incredibly clever! Full of suspense and an abundance of misdirection, this one had me on the edge of my seat from start to finish. I was fully engaged as I felt a part of Waylands intense investigation and relished in uncovering the many shocking revelations! I really enjoyed Rickstad’s diabolical mind and his writing style so I’m excited to read more from him! 𝙾𝚗𝚎 𝚜𝚎𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚝. 𝙴𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚌𝚛𝚢𝚙𝚝𝚒𝚌 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜. 𝙻𝚒𝚏𝚎𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚛𝚞𝚒𝚗.

  21. 5 out of 5

    Sarah

    I would like to thank edelweiss and the publisher for an advance copy in exchange for an honest review. I really enjoyed this book, it is by an author I haven’t read before but the premise sounded interesting. The first 1/4 is more slow burning but it picks up and I sped through the last 3/4 and I couldn’t put it down. Wayland witnesses the suicide of his father as a child and then as a teen is plagued by the memory of it and what really happened that night. A great read with plot twists I didn’ I would like to thank edelweiss and the publisher for an advance copy in exchange for an honest review. I really enjoyed this book, it is by an author I haven’t read before but the premise sounded interesting. The first 1/4 is more slow burning but it picks up and I sped through the last 3/4 and I couldn’t put it down. Wayland witnesses the suicide of his father as a child and then as a teen is plagued by the memory of it and what really happened that night. A great read with plot twists I didn’t see coming.

  22. 5 out of 5

    Andrea Corley

    I have several books by Eric Rickstad on my TBR list, however I Am Not Who You Think I Am is the first book that I have read by him and I've got to tell you that I AM NOT DISAPPOINTED! If all of his books are like this, I think I may have just found a new favorite author. This book is all about family secrets and how they affect the lives of others. The secrets run deep and past your darkest imagination which is part of what makes this book so great! It will keep you guessing until the very end a I have several books by Eric Rickstad on my TBR list, however I Am Not Who You Think I Am is the first book that I have read by him and I've got to tell you that I AM NOT DISAPPOINTED! If all of his books are like this, I think I may have just found a new favorite author. This book is all about family secrets and how they affect the lives of others. The secrets run deep and past your darkest imagination which is part of what makes this book so great! It will keep you guessing until the very end and then leave you feeling like you've just gotten off of one heck of a roller coaster ride that you just want to keep getting back on! It's that train wreck that you just can't cover your eyes...you keep watching with abated breath! Rickstad gives away little snippets but nothing that gives you anything close to the actual story until he smacks you in the face with it! Now THAT is my FAVORITE kind of book! AMAZING!!!! Steven Weber is the narrator for this title and I kept chuckling to myself because I couldn't get past thinking about him playing on Wings for the longest time, but he really did a phenomenal job narrating this book! He really brought it a special kind of depth that not every narrator can bring! Overall, I am super stoked that I read this book and will now bump up all of the other Rickstad books that I have in my pile because I have a feeling that this author is THE NEXT BEST THING!!! I would like to offer a huge THANK YOU to Eric Rickstad, Blackstone Publishing and Netgalley for providing me I Am Not Who You Think I Am which allowed me to provide you with this honest and unbiased review!!

  23. 5 out of 5

    Bookworm

    3.5 stars A twisty thriller that took some time for me to get into but once I was engaged, piqued my interest. I found the mystery was well executed, with one surprise after another. The writing could have used some editing as there was too much needless description that impacted the pacing. A decent audiobook performance in which the narrator was a terrific fit for the MC perspective of Wayland Maynard.. in all, a solid mystery thriller that was worth the read and came together nicely at the en 3.5 stars A twisty thriller that took some time for me to get into but once I was engaged, piqued my interest. I found the mystery was well executed, with one surprise after another. The writing could have used some editing as there was too much needless description that impacted the pacing. A decent audiobook performance in which the narrator was a terrific fit for the MC perspective of Wayland Maynard.. in all, a solid mystery thriller that was worth the read and came together nicely at the end. Thank you to Blackstone Publishing and Netgalley for an advanced audio copy in exchange for an honest review. #blackstonepublishing

  24. 4 out of 5

    Lynn

    The synopsis for this book caught my attention. “Wayland Maynard is just eight years old when he sees his father kill himself, finds a note that reads I am not who you think I am, and is left reeling with grief and shock. … Eight years later, Wayland makes a shocking discovery and becomes certain the note is the key to unlocking a past his mother and others in his town want to keep buried.” We are fortunate that we are able to accompany Wayland on his investigation. As his investigation progresse The synopsis for this book caught my attention. “Wayland Maynard is just eight years old when he sees his father kill himself, finds a note that reads I am not who you think I am, and is left reeling with grief and shock. … Eight years later, Wayland makes a shocking discovery and becomes certain the note is the key to unlocking a past his mother and others in his town want to keep buried.” We are fortunate that we are able to accompany Wayland on his investigation. As his investigation progresses, more questions than answers arise, and Wayland makes things worse since the more he discovers, the angrier he becomes. There were several times that I gasped out loud at the pain Wayland experiences. The story is engaging with twists and turns throughout, keeping me engaged—wanting to find the ultimate truth. I especially appreciated the author’s word and turn of phrase choices; the story benefited greatly from his writing style/voice. A copy of I Am Not Who You Think I Am was provided to me by NetGalley and Blackstone Publishing for an honest review.

  25. 5 out of 5

    Joshua Marsella

    A deep dive into the psyche of a young man who’s desperate for answers to a mystery that’s been plaguing him and his family for most of his life. It all starts to spiral out of his control the deeper he digs and we see how fragile he becomes as the resistance to the truth grows stronger. This book kept me engrossed from start to finish. Every time I thought I could predict what was really going on, I would soon learn that I was wrong. The flawed main character, Wayland, was extremely well-writte A deep dive into the psyche of a young man who’s desperate for answers to a mystery that’s been plaguing him and his family for most of his life. It all starts to spiral out of his control the deeper he digs and we see how fragile he becomes as the resistance to the truth grows stronger. This book kept me engrossed from start to finish. Every time I thought I could predict what was really going on, I would soon learn that I was wrong. The flawed main character, Wayland, was extremely well-written and even though I knew he was heading down the wrong path, I couldn’t help but root for him until the very end. This was a fantastic read and my first book by Rickstad. I’ve already picked up a few of his other books and consider myself a fan. I highly recommend this to fans of suspense and thrillers that’ll leave you on the edge of your seat.

  26. 4 out of 5

    Larry H

    Wow, this was dark and twisty. When he was eight years old, Wayland’s father killed himself in front of him. The only explanation was a cryptic note which read, “I am not who you think I am.” He can’t understand why his father would’ve killed himself or why his mother has gotten rid of anything connected with him. Now 16, Wayland is still haunted by the memories of that day, but when he makes a startling discovery, he thinks the note his father left may be the key to some answers around his death. Wow, this was dark and twisty. When he was eight years old, Wayland’s father killed himself in front of him. The only explanation was a cryptic note which read, “I am not who you think I am.” He can’t understand why his father would’ve killed himself or why his mother has gotten rid of anything connected with him. Now 16, Wayland is still haunted by the memories of that day, but when he makes a startling discovery, he thinks the note his father left may be the key to some answers around his death. But the more he digs, things get more mysterious, and Wayland gets more and more unhinged. And what he finds out may be far more bizarre than he ever imagined. I Am Not Who You Think I Am was a definite slow burn but it was very intriguing. But as Wayland started to lose his grip, the book starts getting darker and darker and definitely more bizarre. By the end it felt a little like a mashup between a gothic novel and Riley Sager’s Lock Every Door , more in tone though, not horror. If dark and twisty books are your jam, check this out! See all of my reviews at itseithersadnessoreuphoria.blogspot.com. Follow me on Instagram at https://www.instagram.com/the.bookishworld.of.yrralh/.

  27. 5 out of 5

    Laura Peden

    4/5 stars for this twisty, emotional thriller! Steven Weber continues to impress me with his narration. He’s 60 yrs old and the MC is 17 or 18 for most of the story, so I was a bit perplexed by that until I finished and it all made sense.

  28. 5 out of 5

    Cynthia

    “Don’t wreck your future trying to understand the past. Knowing won’t change what happened… The truth is often ugly and mean.” At the tender age of eight, Wayland Maynard witnesses his father’s graphic suicide. Wayland finds a note on the scene that reads, “I am not who you think I am.” Another eight years of his life pass before he really begins to process what that might have meant. He has questions that no one will answer and, convinced that the man he saw kill himself was not actually his fa “Don’t wreck your future trying to understand the past. Knowing won’t change what happened… The truth is often ugly and mean.” At the tender age of eight, Wayland Maynard witnesses his father’s graphic suicide. Wayland finds a note on the scene that reads, “I am not who you think I am.” Another eight years of his life pass before he really begins to process what that might have meant. He has questions that no one will answer and, convinced that the man he saw kill himself was not actually his father, Wayland sets out to find the truth. I Am Not Who You Think I Am was an incredibly intriguing read that drew me in immediately. I loved the way the author had the narrator look back at his single mother with a different perspective, appreciating the sacrifices she’d made for him that he’d once taken for granted. I enjoyed the intensity of the novel as I followed Wayland’s attempt to solve the mystery. And I thought the author depicted this traumatized boy who had not received the support he should have well. He was a young man slowly becoming unhinged in a desperate search for closure. I felt for him, despite some of his terrible choices. One could almost call this a cautionary tale. But… The ending was too devastating and over-the-top for me. You all know I like dark books, so I am just as confused as you are as I write this. I did not like the utter despair of it all. I think this story will haunt me, but not in a good way. Make no mistake: It is a jaw dropping conclusion. It’s one that will surely satisfy the bulk of my fellow thriller readers out there. I am just… so, so sad. If you want a page-turner that successfully shocks, this is the one. Perhaps you won’t be as devastated as I am. Regardless, I think the author succeeded in proving what I quoted in the beginning of this review. The truth is, indeed, often ugly and mean. I Am Not Who You Think I Am will leave you reeling so when you open it up, make sure you hold on tight! I am immensely grateful to Blackstone Publishing for my gifted copy. All opinions are my own.

  29. 5 out of 5

    Kori Potenzone

    "Wayland Maynard is just eight years old when he sees his father kill himself, finds a note that reads I am not who you think I am, and is left reeling with grief and shock. Who was his father if not the loving man Wayland knew? Terrified, Wayland keeps the note a secret, but his reasons for being afraid are just beginning." - GoodReads This is the first novel I have read by Eric Rickstad, but it will not be my last. The writing style was smooth and enjoyable, the transition between chapters flo "Wayland Maynard is just eight years old when he sees his father kill himself, finds a note that reads I am not who you think I am, and is left reeling with grief and shock. Who was his father if not the loving man Wayland knew? Terrified, Wayland keeps the note a secret, but his reasons for being afraid are just beginning." - GoodReads This is the first novel I have read by Eric Rickstad, but it will not be my last. The writing style was smooth and enjoyable, the transition between chapters flowed nicely into each other. The character development was on point and the twist at the end is nothing short of five stars. The first quarter of the book was definitely a slow burn but I think it was just part of the build up. Once I hit the mid point I could not put this book down. I would highly recommend this author to anyone who enjoys a good thriller.

  30. 4 out of 5

    Yusuf Nasrullah

    Lot of drama and steamy build-up, and then a furiously inept resolution. Bah!

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